Recently, for old times sake, I went to one of my favorite sites, DailyKos.com, logged into my account, and pulled up my last two entries and the responses to them. Was almost immediately repulsed by the author's childish attitude, his arrogance and bullying, and his willingness to respond in kind to nasty comments, going not only down to the level of his critics, but way, way beneath them... Lol. Then I remembered that I was the author, and thought, "Oh crap! I reeeaaally had some anger issues back then, didn't I?" Guess I did... One of my major complaints used to be that people did not read or perhaps believe in my profile before commenting that i didn't know my science. Well here's a fact that i didn't put in my profile: I am bipolar, and since my divorce some eleven years ago, I have been Baker Acted (hospitalized against my will) for depression some nine or ten times! This doesn't excuse my poor writing efforts or my nasty attempts to defend my incomplete thoughts, but perhaps it does explain them somewhat.
So to anyone I called a dumbass, or threatened to visit their page and write nasty things about their diaries, I apologize sincerely and deeply. I stopped writing on Kos because i was just getting tired of the arguing and the negative side that brought out of me. Truth is, my ideas will always be controversial, and especially distateful to the average liberal or intellectual mainly because I see all the same facts they may know and come to an exactly opposite conclusion based on those facts than anyone else, including the original author of the knowledge. For example, Steven Hawking tells us that all the physical constants of the universe were set in the first few nanoseconds after the big bang. The facts are that these constants are all exactly what they have to be for life to be possible and that if even one of them was changed by even a fraction of a percent, life would not have developed on Earth for any number of reasons. I see these facts and theories and conclude the universe was designed, Hawking comes to the opposite conclusion while looking at the same facts. I can't imagine why he would be motivated to doubt the existence of God, but so be it. Similarly, I see the fact that evolution happens at all as being proof that each particle of the universe was instituted with the universal spirit (see Kirlian photography) that has been present in our universe since the beginning of time. Others obviously disagree, and so it goes...
The funny thing is, if you knew me in real life, you would know that I'm not the sort of person who insists on being right all the time, it just so happens that I usually am.... lolol. When I wrote those last two entries, I was on the tail end of an eight year long period of self-enforced celibacy. Thass right people, I gave up sex and even all attempts at dating so that all my resources could go towards my kids education. Zach and Haley attended the finest prep school available in the southwest Florida region, while I wasted away in central Florida, skipping a social life and sometimes even missing my visitation rights so that their tuition could be paid. Well, the results are in, and Zach got a 50K scholarship to Vassar and Haley got 58K per year to attend Reed in Portland, Oregon. When you add that up for four years, that's about a 600% return on my investment, so I guess I was right to do what I did. I didn't demand credit for making this sacrifice or try to convince people that private schooling was worthwhile even if it puts you in the poorhouse; I just knew what was right so I did it and lived with the consequences of my decision. Now, my kids are in college without needing any further help from me, and I'm chasing after half the strippers in Volusia County... so yes, I guess God does work in mysterious ways.
Back in 2010, I used to take considerable pride in the fact that I had written the definition for meta-evolution in Wiktionary. Alas, that also was to end shortly after when some computer nerds decided that they knew the definition of the prefix meta better than the original Greeks. I blame Google for ranking pages based on the number of their links rather than based on the quality of their content. For better or worse, though, the official meaning of the word is now, "the evolution of evolution" - a nonsensical nonsequiter if ever I heard one. There is no supporting documentation for this definition, because none exists. My definition was based on two sources, both nonfiction works by science journalists with the word meta-evolution right in the title of the books. When I went to the back page discussion, I found that the computer nerds thought I was trying to gain attention for my own blog, even though it was never mentioned and didn't even exist anymore at that point in time due to the server crash at journalspace.com. Also saw in the discussion that they accused me of having an "obsessive mind", which I took as one of the nicest compliments I've ever received. Of course I think obsessively and constantly, don't you? I wanted to blast these noodle headed nerds in the discussion room, but the fact was that they had all the power, and I was just a guest user. Guess I'll just have to be satisfied when in 20 years, doctors and engineers alike remember there IS SUCH A THING as the principal of least action, and that it affects all branches of science equally. When people remember that meta means to go beyond, and realize that they hold the keys to self-directed evolution in their sweaty little palms, no one will remember me, but I will and I'll be smiling... ;)
In the meantime, I have a beautiful woman sleeping in my bed who's waiting to be woke up in the best possible way. Once again, I humbly apologize to any I may have offended and beg your forgiveness. Don't expect that this diary means I will be writing again on a regular basis, though. I may or i may not, but either way I expect to be out on my bike, experiencing life rather than arguing about the meaning of it. And just to show that this really is a kinder, gentler Bob, I'm also putting in an entry I published on Facebook last year. It requires no documentation, no completed complicated thoughts, just a desire to try and experiment and experience for yourself. And if you don't like it, and think I'm an ass... I could care less! Peace, <3, and Light
Top Ten Mantras for a Peaceful Meditation...
by Robert Leatherman (Notes) on Thursday, November 1, 2012 at 5:53pm
So this is one I wrote a while ago, and I finally figured it was about time to publish. For those of you in the know, I have been going through a lot of ups and downs and stress, tension, joys, and sorrows lately. Normally, this would worry me, but this time I feel up to the task at hand; there is a certain strength that being put through the fires so many times in the past has accumulated in me. So don't worry for me please, just read and enjoy and feel free to add your own favorite mantras as well. Peace, Love, and Light from Deland, FL...
Top Ten Mantras for a Peaceful Meditation
1. For every cloud; a silver lining. For every rain drop; a ray of sunshine.
2. Evil hides and hates the light of day...
3. A courageous heart can change the world!
4. God is in the details, plan each action accordingly.
5. Wisdom avoids a restless mind, heart, soul, and body.
6. The fate of our world lies in our own hands... (wait, is that supposed to be comforting?)
7. Greet your neighbor joyfully with a song on your lips!
8. The absence of catastrophe is it's own reward.
9. God's in His Heavens, and all's well with the world.
10. I dwell in harmony with all of God's critters... (lol)
